Im still here... unfourtunately. I wish I had the courage to go thru with that night, cause living with the aftermath is so much harder. Even if there is a hell, Id rather Brave it than knowin im gonna be without her....... All I can hear right now is the words of a few songs that fit me to a T...

Crawling in my skin, theese wounds they will not heal.
Fear is how I cope, Confuseing what is real...

I tried so Hard and got so far, but in the end it doesnt even matter. I had to fall to loose it all, but in the end it doesnt even matter.


Is anybody even there that doesnt just pretend to care, this time I need to know are you there. does anybody think they can, begin to even undestand, this time I need to know are you there...


So pardon me while I burst into flames, Ive had enough of the world and its peoples mindless games. So pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flames, so pardon me pardon me.... I'll never be the same.

-=sighs=- it hurts like mother F*ckin hell.... but ive had a good friend by my side the whole time and she's keept me sane all this while... I think the world of her, but it still hurts.